It has been almost 2 years since I have posted on this website. I accidently clicked into a blog earlier today and thought "I wonder if my blog is still up", sure enough it was and so I thought I'd write an update. I looked at a few past posts and I'm amazed at how much has changed these past few years. Perhaps I'll use this as a diary (a diary anyone can read, lol) so I can look back at all these times.
Anywayz, I've got a lot to do tonight so I'll just sum up what's changed:
My beagle died a few days after Valentine's Day last year, I've had her since I was eleven and she was an amazing dog. About two months later, I broke up with my boyfriend after almost three and a half years of being bf/gf. He was in love with another girl for some of the time he was with me. The way he was treating me got worse and worse. I had been in a lot of pain for months over the whole thing, I was confused and not sure if he really did have feelings for her. -I'll admit though a third of the stress was also because of school, there was a class I was worried about but I somehow passed it with a C and I was also stressed over losing my dog who meant a lot to me. Anyways, my boyfriend wanted to be less around me and was treating her more like a girlfriend (he would take her out and think he told me important things but had told her instead). After the break up my health was still bad, I was having trouble eating because the smell of cooked food and even some food that wasn't cooked would make me nauseous and sometimes vomit. I went to see a doctor and discovered my stress had worsened my acid reflux which is why I was so sensitive to smells (to an extreme amount apparently). So I got some acid reflux books, changed my diet (started eating healthier food), while also working on reducing my stress, which helped a lot though I'm still having some health issues. By July I joined a dating website where I met a great guy.... who dumped me while we were dating (of course this happened soon after I discovered I was in love with him) because after months of not speaking to him his ex-girlfriend suddenly texted him and told him she wanted to get back together with him. He thought he was over her but realized he wasn't.
BTW THERE IS A HAPPY ENDING TO THIS POST I SWEAR. I moved on really fast, I actually went on the dating website just a week after being dumped. I think because of what happened to my ex-boyfriend it was easier to get through this. I really went on the website that day with the intention of just answering some questions the website posted for fun, not to look for a new relationship so soon. A guy then messaged me who was interested in me and wanted to talk. I don't like to just ignore people so I looked at his profile. We had a lot in common but some things did catch my eye that I didn't like, I actually tried to turn him down two times but he managed to convince me he was a keeper. Our first date was really special I know I'll never forget it. He even asked me to be his girlfriend at the end of it, which I said yes too.
This month will make 8 months that we've been bf/gf. He's an amazing guy, suprisingly he has a lot of qualities I've wanted in a guy throughout my life. He's literally so "wow" sometimes I feel I'm not worthy enough of being his girlfriend. -I think the only cool quality he doesn't have is he doesn't have dark blue eyes, which would look so hot on him though I still enjoy looking into his cute brown eyes, lol. He is very kind to me, he respects my feelings, shows he cares about me (even out in public), makes me happy, and is just an overall gentleman he's so great! He also spoils me so much, he buys me nice and expensive gifts, which I enjoy but I also feel kinda bad because I don't have a job so I can't buy him such expensive gifts too. For some reason I didn't expect being treated like this when getting into a new relationship. I was always the one who paid for stuff, set up dates, and bought gifts when I was with my ex, he very very rarely did the same for me (he prefered to spend his money on video games), which kinda makes me feel used. Speaking of which...
I talk with my ex-boyfriend about once a month now (he got mad that I wasn't texting much so he says he wants me to talk to him at least once a month). When I think of him now I mostly think of the pain I went through because of him, which makes me very angry, so I'm trying to get over that. He's still a friend and I shouldn't think like that, we did have a happy memories too when we were going out and he was a bestfriend and boyfriend back then for a reason so I'm trying to think a little more positive about him. Anyways, so his life now... he's dropped out of college and works for his mom by delivering flowers to people (she owns a flower business). Twice he's asked out the girl I mentioned earlier (the girl he was in love with while he was with me), both times she's rejected him, but I know he's still going to try until she gives in. I feel a bit bad for him because she apparently asks him all the time to give her rides to places since she doesn't have a car, he's even admitted to me he feels like her chauffeur (but he likes it). I think she's taking advantage of him, hopefully I'm wrong :(
As for the guy I dated.... we're good friends now. :) He got back together with his ex girlfriend but dumped her a few months later. I'm kinda glad because she treated him like crap. He's now going after another girl now who's really sweet and seems like a good match for him. However she was previously in a relationship where the guy treated her really badly and says she's not ready for a new relationship. Somehow he managed to get her to go on a few dates with him but he thinks it'll be a really long time before she's comfortable enough to want to be his girlfriend, seems like he's willing to wait forever for her though, it's really cute :)
Another person that's been in my life recently that I didn't mention earlier is a girl who use to be my best friend from about age 7 until I turned 14 or 15. There was a misunderstanding about three years ago where I thought she said something bad about me so I stopped speaking to her. I've always kind of wondered why she would say that since she was always really nice to me, but my trust in people has always been really bad (I have my reasons). Sometime around July I decided to send her a message explaining why I stopped talking with her and I wanted to get her side of the story on the situation. I found out I really misinterpreted something she said. So now our friendship is restored and we talk each week. She now lives on the other side of the country from me with her boyfriend from Spain (I'm totally jealous, I wish I lived with my bf. lol). Her family was like a family to me too when I was little so it was interesting hearing about what was happening with them. Her brother is now gay, her sister is a sweet girl and gets excellent grades but her mom is mean to her now for some unknown reason. Her mother and father got a divorce about a year ago and now live in seperate states. My friend's sister who use to be"daddy's little girl" and seemed to cling to the man everytime she saw him now doesn't even want to see or speak to him which worries me since something extremely bad must've happened to completely change her attitude towards him.
So here's some other things that have happened recently:
-New roommate now lives two rooms down from me, he's nice, has a son my age (haven't met him yet), and he has the same first name as my dad which I think is interesting. (There's now three guys with the same name within a 5 house radius, lol)
-One of my uncles got a divorce, my aunt or is it ex aunt? seems to have totally "lost her marbles". I feel a bit bad for her because at this rate things are just going to get worse and worse for her.
-Right now I'm angry at my Aunt (different then above aunt) who went too far and really said something inappropriate to me at Easter. It got so bad that I cried, my grandma cried, and now my dad is pissed off at her and my other Aunts are upset at her too. Hopefully our relationship won't get worse in the future but I'm a bit scared of her now, I really hope I dont see her anytime soon.
-I'm a "pre-business" major: It's going to be tough, there's a lot of classes and requirements to accomplish before I can be accepted as a business major.
-I got a new phone recently ....which is broken so I need to return it
-I still hate driving but I drive way way more than I use to (my boyfriend lives over 50 miles away from me so I have to drive a lot to see him). The drive isn't too bad but my boyfriend is moving so my route will change a little which makes me a bit nervous. He's worth it though, I'd drive anywhere for him ;)
There's more I could say but I gotta go, if perhaps anyone does read all this, thank you for reading and I'm sorry it was so long, lol.
